| Did you guys see Twilight? if you didnt, i recommend you watch it. it is amazing. I wish a vampire was in my school. =/. lol Life's not that great anymore, im just looking foward to xmas. <3 Ahlyn bought me shoes ^^ hehe i love her. but i dont know what kind they are yet, cause i didnt open it. man, i need to pay off my credit card bill & i need money for xmas presents. I finally saw it, when my friend told me..i didnt believe it..but when i saw it with my own eyes..i finally believed it. He has a gf. I saw him wrapping his arms around her, hugging her from the back. this hurts..a lot. its not that i didnt believe her when she told me, but i didnt want to believe her. i still wanted hope. sigh...this always happens with me..why??!!? |
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| People say everything happens for a reason. Then what is the reason for me seeing you in school everyday huh? i TRIED so hard, to get over you. I avoided you at school but then you pop out of no where? Then also out of no where, i know where your classroom is, when i have that class you come out of that class. your smile was so stunning, i almost fainted. you make my heart ache and ache. But then liking you makes my heart feel so warm. i feel so stupid for liking you. i really do, i even wonder if something is wrong with me? i think there is. i said to myself "im not gonna like any boys in highschool as a freshman" but what happens? you came along and shotted at my heart. I seriously feel stupid, you have no idea. you probably don't even know i exist. is this what you call puppy love? i've never fell over a guys smile, your the first & hopefully my last. |
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| 8.8.08 This date was awesome. HARU HARU BABY <3 Best date out of the whole summer. the song is stuck in my head--on&on. can't wait for their comeback. must learn the dance moves of reply this summer ^^. " Now i know why i stopped talking to you--you weren't worth my time in the first place--." |
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| I haven't blogged for a long time..&& when i finally want to blog its all sad stuff. Divorce . What exactly is it? =/. i don't want a divorce to happen. uncle&&aunt. why is this happening? IS it even gonna happen? they have a child almost 2, i grew feelings for this kid..she's my cousin..i treat her like my sister..i need her. i see her 24/7 of my life. i come home from school, she comes running to me saying jeh jeh [sister in chinese] . i love her so much. i don' t want her to leave me if this thing happens. I'm crying while writing this. She's my baby. i feed her, take care of her, change her diaper. Her mother dosen't take care of her like i do. the mother likes the baby only to hug&kiss her cause she'cute. But has she trully taken care of this child? NO. she hasnt. i don't want them to divorce..thinking of this makes me wanna cry a lot thinking that i would lose the baby ive always loved&cherised. i know, i yell at her sometimes cause she touched my stuff. but i really love her. someone needs to cheer me up. im feeling so down. i dont know what to do anymore. why did this person tell me this? i shouldnt have never knew and everything would of been fine. 
thats her. i love her. </3 |
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